The Color of Water

"Sometimes without conscious realization, our thoughts, our faith, our interests are entered into the past. We talk about other times, other places, other persons, and lose our living hold on the present. Sometimes we think if we could just go back in time we would be happy. But anyone who attempts to reenter the past is sure to be disappointed." -The Color of Water

I read this post the other day on facebook, and it happens to be from a book I read my junior or senior year of highschool. You'd think I would remember it, because it definitely stands out, and yet I must have skipped over it in reading. The past year or so has been crazy for me; so many ups and downs, that I started to think there were more bad things in this world than good. I've been dwelling on my past for quite some time, and it's ruining the great things that I do have in my life. And then I read this quote. It's funny how such simple things can really make you think. It really is the little things that count. When I read this post on facebook, I thought, wow..did it really just take some post on facebook to change my outlook on my life? Yepp. It did. After reading this, I realized, the past is the past. There's no way to change it, it is what it is, and I must deal with it. I can't keep dwelling on it, because all it does is disappoint me. I always think about other times, other places, other persons: thinking that I must find a way back to my old self. But that isn't the answer. There is no going back, there is only going forward, and that's what I must do if I ever want to be happy again. I always thought maybe if I could go back to being who I was in the past, I would find happiness, but all it's done is drag me down..and now that has all come to an end. Instead of trying to go back to being who I was, I'm going to just be me. As I am today. And as time changes, so will I. And as the days go on, I will continue to heal, and then..I will be happy again.